Pyschaotic Mind Of A Dying Male

| Partners For Life |
| Feat. DongWan As The Kidnapper |

| Simple Music Video |
| I Like It, But Saldaga ( As You Live ) Is Much Better Ya? |
| But That Video Has Two Parts |

| Part 1 : Sin & Punishment |
| Part 2 : As You Live |

| Dun Think I Shud Post The Two, Since I Bet Noone Has Time |
| To Come And Watch Especially When Noone Even Watches One Haha… |

| Anyway |
| Nothing Much Been Goin On, Just Holidays |
| Got My License |
| JPJ Called Me A Gangster |
| So I Looked Him Straight In The Face |
| And Said ” Saya Bukan Gangster La Boss ” |
| I Should Have Said ” Lu Mahu Mati Ar? ” |
| Hehe… |

| Yawn…So Boring Lately |
| Been Wrapping Up Some Presents |
| Yes, I Know How To Wrap, I Cleaned My PS2 Room, & Also Cleaned Up My Room |
| Heehee So Happy No Ashes All Over The Damned Place… |

| Hmmm…Downloaded Alot Of Songs Lately |
| Mostly From SG Wannabe |
| Got One From Flipsyde, Wheesung…A Bunch La… |

| Ok Guys, Enjoy The Video, I Think Its A Nice One |
| But The Song Could Have Been…Sadder…Haha… |

| Its been awhile since I been doing this blog again… |
| I don’t know seems like everything is doing ok for now… |
| But I feel…something is missing |
| Its always missing… |
| Something in my heart, like a piece of a puzzle missing the very end piece |

| I met a girl a long time ago |
| How to explain… |
| Even after all these times…I still think about it |
| About my past, still liviing there |
| Why can’t she be that one person from the future, to take me away with her… |
| I’m stuck, always stuck at this moment… |

| Like…everyday, it feels like I’m still there |
| Watching her go away |
| While I stood there… |
| Why didn’t I do this and that… |

| And still, standing inside the LRT |
| I can still feel her presence |
| Telling me, speaking to me… |
| Depression?…Sadness?…What is this…?…Why can’t I die? |
| Only the good die young… |

| Sometimes, I don’t know why I’m dwelling |
| Just dwelling and dwelling, even if I knew there was no end, or the end has nothing |
| There I am, digging myself down… |

| I blame myself everyday, every night |
| Is this feeling following me, until the very end? |
| Sometimes angry, sometimes sad |
| Never happy…when these thoughts return to me |

| I don’t know what to do anymore… |
| I tried to smoke it all away, throw it all away |
| But ur not back…u won’t come back….u’ll never come back…. |
| I tried to forget u, but u don’t want me to forget u…so I didn’t… |
| I wanted to tell u so many things…. |
| But my mouth can’t say the words, everytime |
| Ur there, I can’t find the breath to say it out… |

| I just wanted to tell u…. |

| 12.03.06 |
| Hmm…Its Been Awhile Since I Wrote Again Ya? |
| College Is Ok, Met Some Interesting People |
| Alot Of Them Don’t Look Lively Though =.= |
| Hmm… |

| Well, I Guess That’s That… |
| Just Sitting Around, Trying To Pick Up Some Pieces Of My Life From The Floor |
| Wondering What To Do, Where To Go, How To Move On, ETC ETC~~ |

| I Guess I’ll Just Keep Studying, Move On |
| And Just Find A Job One Day, Get Some Money, Buy Some Shit Ass Car |
| Buy A Shit Ass House For A Shit Ass Guy |
| And Have A Happy Family ( No, Not A Shit Ass Family, If You Want That Happening To Me, Reader, Ur Fucked Up ) |
| Anyway, Just Move On |

| Did I Tell You, Blog, Reader, Etc |
| That I Recently Got Plenty Of Wheesung’s Music |
| Man He’s Good, Got A Real Good Voice There |
| Too Bad That Guy Ain’t Havin The Looks Like Some Other Singers |
| But Who Cares? He’s Real Good At Singing |
| I Still Prefer Hwanhee, He Is Truly, Indeed, The Best Korean Voice I Heard In My Life |

| Maybe I’ll Post A Deftones Video, Or Maybe A Wheesung Video |
| Lets See Whats My Mood Hee Hee |
| Peace Blog |

| 02.03.06 |

| Today I ate a big dinner |
| Panda’s only eat bamboo but oh well… |
| If humans miss their loved ones, what do Panda’s miss?… |
| I am the only Panda that misses a girl… |

| Is it odd?…an animal misses a girl?…hehe…. |
|  Sometimes I ask myself why this and why that… |
| Like why did this happen and this and that… |
| Can we actually find the answers to these things… |

| Like why am I referring myself to a panda? |
| And why everytime I fall in love, I never knew that I was in love |
| Until I leave the person? |
| And why dun I know I dun love the person in the beginning |
| Instead of going through so much then only find out? |

| I guess its life’s lesson?… |
| I dunno…right now, I just dunno what to do anymore… |
| Its like I’m stuck in this crossroad |
| And asking myself what shud I be choosing… |
| Does love really conquer all? |
| I bet not, when there is so much of love in this world |
| There is so much war |

| The answer, my friends is not in the Black Book |
| I’m sorry, going everyday on sunday does not bring me closer to God |
| Each day I live brings me closer to God, and the end of my life |

| Anyway…Hi Lisa I Miss U hehe… |